I seem to be making a few mistakes with Friends and Family back home and in London.  They always seem like the things to do in the moment or more so I get caught up in the moment and do something I shouldn’t have.

Its been a good lesson to learn but these events have defintely changed the way I think about things.

I guess you get to an age where you have to grow up but not necessary forget all types of fun- I cant imagine giving up balloons or cupcakes because they are deemed childish but more like I am at an age where lying or withholding how I feel about something should be stopping. All the people in my life play a very vital part and at 24 I should be able to tell someone how I feel without getting into a fight or argument. Regardless of how I behave towards Balloons, puppies or confetti I am confident that through all these ‘mistakes’ that I now know that if I have a problem or am upset then talking to the offender or other person is going to be the only way to solve it and even if the other person doesn’t agree or has their own problems with it I can be safe in the knowledge that I was true to myself.

I need to stop going after the small things, there is a  much bigger picture.

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I am about to skip so many events but i need to get something out.
I was suppose to be back home today and its a very strange thought.
I am heading to Paris tomorrow and i should have been home.
How quickly things change, i still cant believe that i have been gone a year, to think of that blows my mind. I knew it would go fast but i cant even believe it.
I am so content in whats happening right now and the friendship and relationships i am developing, to go home right now would undo all a lot of things i have been working on within myself.
I have found a friend in Carlie i thought i wouldn't have, the way our friendship is building is fantastic and i think we are both as stunned by it. We have basically spent the last 7 months together, everyday we have seen each other apart from Berlin, Norway and Australia and even though she lives in a new house i still see her every night. We are basically dating and its hilarious.
I have been through so much in the last year and experienced more than i could ever imagine.
This year will go down as one of the best of my life.
To finding new loves, new friends, a family away from my family, new passions and new laughs.
I want to say that i am really happy but i know my life to well, i say that and something will happen to bring me back down to reality but i guess that happened on the weekend. My bag got stolen. again. for the 2nd time in a year and 3 days before my travel insurance ran out. I guess there is a certain degree of luck in that but i shouldn't of taken such a shiny bag out. I spent the whole night ugly crying but i have been there before and yes it is shit and yes i have to deal with Police reports and insurance claims and having to find a new camera before my trip to Paris tomorrow but they are only material things.
if i have learnt anything in this trip is to be strong and try and let things roll of my back.

To another year, to new friends and new places.
Sydney, I love you but i need more time.